I just wanted to be sure to document that it's not all hormones and stress around here. Yesterday Ingrid and I had a lovely day. We got up, put on a jazz station on the radio, made some wipes for our blog friends in Switzerland, and just relaxed. We spent time together, Ingrid helping me with the scraps and dancing around the table. After a rest, we went to the post office to send things out, then to the grocery store to get our Thanksgiving goodies. And then we played with blocks, colored in her new Christmas coloring books, and somewhere in there she played by herself nicely. Oh, and did I mention she slept until 8am??
Last night everyone in the house was up for some reason. Ingrid got up three times saying she had to go to the bathroom, then when she was on the toilet she'd start crying that she didn't have to go and was cold, as if it was my fault she was in this situation. As if I'd gotten her out of her warm, cozy bed to sit naked on the toilet at 1:30, 3, and 5am...I also had pregnancy insomnia, again, and was up twiddling my thumbs for a couple hours. And at 6:10am Ingrid ran into the bedroom with some clothes "Mama! I picked out my clothes for today! Let's go play!" Ugh.
So, today started out being really crappy, with me yelling and getting really annoyed by every little thing that happened, but I've really been trying to turn those days around. So we went to a friend's house, the girls dressed up like fairies, we ate warm zucchini bread, and Ingrid slept on the way home. She let me rest for a whole hour, and then we played and made English muffin pizzas, and I let her make as big of a mess as she wanted to. We got along, had a good day, and ended it with huge hugs and lots of I love yous. Like it should be.
I just feel like it takes so much effort to be the happy parent that is patient and kind, and lately I just don't have time for it. I am so freakin' tired all the time and I just want to have temper tantrums, too!! But yesterday and today showed me that it's worth that little bit of effort to not fight with my two year old...It makes everyone so much happier!
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